Here. I. Go. Again.

Ada berita apa hari ini?

Jawabannya: nggak ada yang penting.

Dua hari lalu aku flashback ulang--hasil-hasil video waktu ex-bandku manggung, latian bareng di studio. Guess what? Damn, damn, damn, begitu liat orang itu--I lost control. Really. Felt like I was burst into tears, and I was trying sooo hard not to cry, at least not in front of my friends. I was being so unreasonable, and for God's sake, NIGA MIBDA. I hate it so much--getting irritable without knowing the reason why.


Sampe sekarang aku masih heran. Sebetulnya seberapa kuat sih pengaruh dia atasku? Bahkan sampe sekarang pun--setelah berbulan-bulan nggak bertatap muka, apalagi berkomunikasi dengan cara apapun, aku nggak pernah merasa kangen atau hal-hal semacem itu. Tapi hanya dengan liat fotonya, liat dia dari balik lensa kamera, atau video--seems like my heartbeat getting faster. 

Can you feel my heartbeat?

The heart that you stepped all over and left is still beating
And it's beating for you
 
No matter how hard I try to forget
No matter how many new people I meet
Why do i keep thinking of only you when I turn around?
I don't want to do this anymore, I want to stop
No matter how many times I try and try to stop myself,
it's no use 
My heart is broken.. why?

Why do I keep doing such foolish things
I know in my head, but why is my heart rebelling
I'm holding on to you and can't let go
It still feels like you're next to me
I can't believe in farewell

No matter who i meet, i can't open up one part of my heart and I keep your place empty
There's no reason for you to come back, but why do I keep thinking that you might come back?
Why isn't my heart listening?

Listen to my heartbeat (it's beating for you)
Listen to my heartbeat (it's waiting for you)
Don't i know that it's over, I don't understand why i'm like this
Listen to my heartbeat (it's beating for you)
Listen to my heartbeat (it's waiting for you)
It still hurts thinking of you
I think of you every time my heart beats

I have to forget, I have to forget in order to live
I have to erase it, if I don't, I'll die
Stop trying to get him back, he ain't coming
He's gone, gotta be moving on
He left, he won't come back, he doesn't think of you.

He doesn't know that I'm waiting for him, he's doing well
He already forgot about me, totally erased me.
Why can't I do that?

Listen to my heartbeat (it's beating for you)
Listen to my heartbeat (it's waiting for you)
 
My heart is beating faster and faster...

---Heartbeat, 2PM.

Then,

Does somebody know how to cure this pain?

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Yah, itu cuma sebagian kecil dari berbagai cerita di liburan ini. Oh, aku baru aja balik dari liburan keluarga bersama-sama kawan sepermainan ke Dieng, Wonosobo, Purbalingga. Awalnya sih nggak begitu excited--tapi kadang harus aku akui, aku juga butuh liburan di alam luar, nggak cuma aku habisin di sekolah (rapat, dsb) atau di depan kompie (well, I'm doing this right now). Ahaha.


Oke. Better go now. Bye :)
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